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God's Callgirl A friend told me about this book and at first description I was keen to read it, it sounded like a really interesting story right up my alley a woman s disillusionment and rejection of faith and Christian morals However a short while in and I was already disappointed Carla Van Raay s book seems determined to cash in on the virgin turned whore attraction Despite a significant portion of the book discussing the oppressive institution of the Catholic church and the cruel inner working s of th A friend told me about this book and at first description I was keen to read it, it sounded like a really interesting story right up my alley a woman s disillusionment and rejection of faith and Christian morals However a short while in and I was already disappointed Carla Van Raay s book seems determined to cash in on the virgin turned whore attraction Despite a significant portion of the book discussing the oppressive institution of the Catholic church and the cruel inner working s of the convent, the book failed to enlighten me as to any rational thought regarding why the author gave up her faith There is little exploration of Catholicism itself the biography becomes a surface story about a woman abused by the system who thus chooses to take matters into her own hands and abuse herself God, or any discussion of God, is almost non existent and apparently irrelevant to Carla Van Raay s journey Although I support the idea of claiming freedom from sexual oppression, it seems God s Callgirl goes to the other extreme, claiming that the repressed sexual desire s creates nymphomaniacs As autobiography, the book poses a rather thrilling and extreme story but it reminded me of an expanded article from the Real Life section of a Woman s Day magazine with the headline Sworn virgin becomes a hooker how I went from nun to sex worker which is all it basically is GOD S CALLGIRL by Carla Van Raay non fiction During World War 2, Carla s early childhood experiences in a small town in Holland revolved around her family struggles and Catholic upbringing that framed how one very young girl would perceive her place in the world controlled by adults and the Church.A terrible secret, a busy and seemingly unsympathetic mother, and a child s inner conflicts about how she viewed the contradictions of her understanding of Church and God, moulded Carla as she grew GOD S CALLGIRL by Carla Van Raay non fiction During World War 2, Carla s early childhood experiences in a small town in Holland revolved around her family struggles and Catholic upbringing that framed how one very young girl would perceive her place in the world controlled by adults and the Church.A terrible secret, a busy and seemingly unsympathetic mother, and a child s inner conflicts about how she viewed the contradictions of her understanding of Church and God, moulded Carla as she grew into adulthood I was quite absorbed by her story in Holland, and her life in Australia within the convent, but became quite frustrated that at no time did she ever seek another opinion from the one inside her own head After her marriage and the birth of her child, Carla seems to be never satisfied and has a need to explore something she felt missing from her early life Entering into a life of prostitution was, I felt, initially only a short term solution, but further reading gave insight into Carla s turmoil and eventual addiction I became very impatient to finish this book, quite frustrated and annoyed by a total self absorption and indulgence of the author, however, those who grew up in Catholic convent education may appreciate this book farthan I I really loathed this book, and rushed to finish and be done with it The author is filled with self pity and looking to blame others for her own self designed predicament While one feels great horror for the child who suffered at the betrayal and abuse from her father, I felt that there was something deliberatley omitted from the story This child was presented with a few potential confidantes that she chose to ignore and I did wonder why.The remainder of the story continued in the same vein with the author at one moment intrigued by the seclusion of the convent, yet at the same time unable to make the most of her situation Yes, we understand that conditions were harsh in some circumstances, and that indeed much harm was done in such secretive cloistered living, but the author continued to place herself in situations seemingly deliberately in order to sufferI guess some psychologists would blame her past of victimisation by her father, but once again, she had an opportunity NOT to be where she put herself.The path that lead to her work as a prostitute is once again laid at the feet of her past, but I see a person who clearly made the decision, and perhaps if she had not been so unwilling to state and accept her own part in her life, maybe I could have empathised with her story At the age of , Carla van Raay entered a convent to devote her life to God Byshe was earning her living as a prostitute As a child, Carla van Raay experienced a trauma that changed her forever Burdened by the weight of this terrible secret, all she wanted to do was survive Life as a nun promised refuge from the outside world Carla hoped to find love and understanding within the convent walls Instead she became enmeshed in a complex system of regulations that drove her to the brink of madness Finally released from her vows, she escaped back into the real world A hasty marriage and separation left Carla with a daughter to support With few professional skills to rely on from her years as a nun, she turned to another age old profession prostitution She worked as an escort to learn the ropes, then struck out on her own, setting up a massage service God s Callgirl was born When eventually the seamier side of the business began to assert itself, Carla embarked on a journey to uncover the dark secret of her past A true story of religion, abuse, prostitution recovery This would have to be the worst memoir I have ever read and poorly written In the beginning I sympathised with Carla To be the victim of sexual abuse by the hands of a family member is appalling and can leave mental scaring But I could not come to terms with her actions later in life as a prostitute To set up a parlour in the same house your daughters are living in, I think is disgusting She became self obsessed towards the end and I don t think highly of her as a parent.So no I would not r This would have to be the worst memoir I have ever read and poorly written In the beginning I sympathised with Carla To be the victim of sexual abuse by the hands of a family member is appalling and can leave mental scaring But I could not come to terms with her actions later in life as a prostitute To set up a parlour in the same house your daughters are living in, I think is disgusting She became self obsessed towards the end and I don t think highly of her as a parent.So no I would not recommend this to anyone I brought this book last year as one of my holiday reads Usually I get through a good book in 5 10 days but I have only just finished this one Let me explain briefly why The book starts off okay in fact the first third of the book was quite good detailing Carla van Raay s childhood and her reasons for entering the convent nothing out of this world though hardly page turning The second third of the book dragged terribly I expected it to be eye opening as far as revealing the in s and I brought this book last year as one of my holiday reads Usually I get through a good book in 5 10 days but I have only just finished this one Let me explain briefly why The book starts off okay in fact the first third of the book was quite good detailing Carla van Raay s childhood and her reasons for entering the convent nothing out of this world though hardly page turning The second third of the book dragged terribly I expected it to be eye opening as far as revealing the in s and out s of convent life and describing some juicy what goes on behind closed doors facts Not so, it was painfully dull This was when I gave up on it for a year but an unfinished book bugs me so I picked it up again this year to read the final third Carla s demise into prostitution Well the only way I can describe the last third is ridiculous and written extremely uninspiringly As if Carla was writing her memoirs under duress I feel like my time reading this book was a waste of time it was disappointing Carla Van Raay is an interesting woman who led a perfectly imperfect life The book serves as a memoir that chronicles her life from childhood, and the sexual abuse she experienced, to her time in a convent and onwards to her life as a prostitute and later finding self acceptance.She makes some profound statements and whilst her story is so different from my short life so far I felt that our emotional journeys have in some way shared similarities This book made me face some of my own internal v Carla Van Raay is an interesting woman who led a perfectly imperfect life The book serves as a memoir that chronicles her life from childhood, and the sexual abuse she experienced, to her time in a convent and onwards to her life as a prostitute and later finding self acceptance.She makes some profound statements and whilst her story is so different from my short life so far I felt that our emotional journeys have in some way shared similarities This book made me face some of my own internal voices and stories A lot of the reviews on this book claim she never acknowledges the bad she does and that she plays the victim throughout but that is a part of her story and her struggle with life By the end she is able to cast of her self imposed story of victim and whilst she never says i did this wrong and that wrong etcetc she does acknowledge that she did what she felt was right at the time of her actions the same as we all do She acknowledges her emotional immaturity I feel like going over all your wrongdoings in life is not exactly productive.So, no maybe Carla isn t likeable necessarily but she is human and she shared that humanity with us, the reader jeepers what a life from abused to a nun and then a married woman to a prostitute I m glad she managed to heal as well as she did however I did cringe through some of her retelling as I wondered how she managed to skip over her husband s feelings around her choices Despite my sympathies for what she endured as a child, I can t help but find the author an awful woman I struggled to comprehend the wrong doing of any nuns or convents She speaks about her children as though they are just objects Honestly, I getexcited talking about crochet than she does about her children And to top it off, she is genuinely baffled that people are upset with her for sleeping with their husbands Being in need of some serious help does not excuse such appalling behavi Despite my sympathies for what she endured as a child, I can t help but find the author an awful woman I struggled to comprehend the wrong doing of any nuns or convents She speaks about her children as though they are just objects Honestly, I getexcited talking about crochet than she does about her children And to top it off, she is genuinely baffled that people are upset with her for sleeping with their husbands Being in need of some serious help does not excuse such appalling behaviour to friends and family Thanking my stars I don t have a toxic person like her in my life I ve had a fascination with nuns ever since I was young, when my Barbie dolls would regularly make vows to God and then break them in favour of a white lace wedding to Ken The Nun s Story still makes me cry and I can t decide whether I prefer the book to the movie they re both compelling in their own ways I even wrote two chapters of a novel about a twentysomething nun who leaves her order under mysterious circumstances When I went to college an all female, Catholic college run by nun I ve had a fascination with nuns ever since I was young, when my Barbie dolls would regularly make vows to God and then break them in favour of a white lace wedding to Ken The Nun s Story still makes me cry and I can t decide whether I prefer the book to the movie they re both compelling in their own ways I even wrote two chapters of a novel about a twentysomething nun who leaves her order under mysterious circumstances When I went to college an all female, Catholic college run by nuns I observed, up close and personal, the tremendous sacrifice and strength of will exhibited by these amazing women And as an impressionable 20 year old, I had a passing acquaintance with a woman who entered the convent when she was 22, fresh out of college, and what I remember most was seeing her at a conference a year later, thin as a rail and with the sparkle gone from her eyes What could this choice do to a woman, especially in this day and age What does becoming a nun mean for someone s life, and what happens if it doesn t work out The inner workings of convent life especially fascinated me, and still do, to the point that I am drawn to any books having to do with nuns, especially contemporary accounts written by women who have left the order for secular life Fortunately I have a husband with a good memory for such details, and this book was an early Christmas present when I complained about having nothing but parenting manuals to look at Carla van Raay is one of these women, but she didn t leave just to lead a normal life she left and, through a series of soul fragmenting mishaps, decisions, mistakes and choices some conscious, others driven by past events, still others from a desire to confront deeper parts of herself became a prostitute There s not much else to say about that, except that she spends almost as much time detailing the nitty gritty of her life between the sheets as she does explaining the minutiae of convent life Some of it was nauseating, as I have a weak stomach for certain things, but some of it was absolutely spellbinding It was hard for me to remember that she entered the convent in the pre Vatican II days, when Mother Superior ruled and her nuns weren t allowed to think for themselves at all Nuns today have considerablyfreedom of thought and movement or so it appears to an outsider like me Still, there s something timeless about Carla s story, and even though she ll be 70 next year she was born in 1938 , her voice hovers in youth and it s that youth and innocence that informs her story.Having seen the Australian miniseries Brides of Christ on DVD, I had a fair idea about convent life in Australia in the 1960s and the effects Vatican II had on the traditional sisters some of whom could not handle their newfound freedom and went quietly insane I wished Carla had talkedabout this side of things, but her narrative is uneven and at times the chronology is confused, although she tries to give equal attention to the themes she explores It s not a difficult read, and atthan 500 pages, it s good for a rainy weekend It s not as salacious as I expected, and although Carla s indignance and feelings of victimisation are difficult to cope with at times some of her story reads like that of a petulant child tattling to her mother when I contextualise all of these personal annoyances, everything falls into place This book was at times tedious and hard to get through, though I m glad I read it It was an in depth look at a very unusual life I have to confess that I often didn t like Carla very much I did sympathize with her troubles in the convent, and it was interesting to read about how she internalized the abuse she received at the hands of her father I liked the insight into being a nun in the 1950s.But the book got off track when she became a prostitute I felt she engaged in a lot of self decept This book was at times tedious and hard to get through, though I m glad I read it It was an in depth look at a very unusual life I have to confess that I often didn t like Carla very much I did sympathize with her troubles in the convent, and it was interesting to read about how she internalized the abuse she received at the hands of her father I liked the insight into being a nun in the 1950s.But the book got off track when she became a prostitute I felt she engaged in a lot of self deception, and I felt she played the victim to the hilt that she tried to read deeper meaning into the fact that she had sex for money, trying to set herself up as a kind of sexual healer, bringing joy to her clients She never acknowledge the many marriages she destroyed not seducing the husbands of women who trusted her and were her friends She never confesses to horribly mistreating her husband and being a bad mother to her children, glossing over these things And in the end, with her constant search for healing, she just seemed immensely selfish and self centered, playing the victim when it seemed the vast majority of her problems were of her own making She lets herself off the hook by telling herself she is a good person, and that she did her best I m all for self acceptance, but she never acknowledges the bad things she did, the lives she ruined


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